I Am Not Alone

I am alone… I’m single, but unafraid.  I am confident in who I am.  I am a blogger and a daughter of an Almighty King.  I smile in the face of adversity.

I am alone… My mind wanders to places it hasn’t been for some time.  I consider letting someone in.

I am alone… My heart beats wildly as we talk face to face, through random Facebook messages and eventually texts.

I am not alone… His faith strengthens mine.  He provides comfort through the Word and his prayers.

I am not alone… We share common interests, common desires for mission work and to serve God fully.

I am not alone… We also share in struggles of the flesh.

I am not alone… We allow our struggles to become one.

I am alone… I willingly turn my back on God and run to an earthly creation for satisfaction.

I am alone… I have allowed myself to become attached.  My heart cries out for more, but he is unwilling to reciprocate.

I am alone… I am a stumbling block before him.  I need to stop pursuing him.  I am an evil temptation.  I must surrender my feelings to God.

I am not alone… I, raw and broken, bow before the Almighty and seek forgiveness.  I pray for patience or for the desires of my heart to be removed, so that I can make more room for God to enter in.

I am alone… Accusations that I’m not strong enough in my faith arise.  “You need to stop!” echoes in my ears and I begin to doubt myself.

I am not alone… I am one of many caught in his web.

I am not alone… Disturbing truth comes to light.

I am alone… As sick as it may be, I want to run to him for comfort. His power over me is that strong.

I am not alone… God has protected me through it all.

I am not alone… There are people surrounding me with love and prayers.  There are shoulders to cry on, hands to hold, arms to envelop me in hugs.  There are prayers being lifted from as near as the next cubicle, to as far away as Napa Valley.

I am not alone… The road will be long. The numbness will wear off and the aftermath will be messy.  The healing will take time. But there are people who will walk beside me.  Jesus will be there too.

“I am not alone.  You will go before me.  You will never leave me!”

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Bree is a recovering perfectionist, whose weaknesses include the clearance rack at Target and anything pumpkin flavored. Though she is an introvert, she has an insatiable craving for community and desire to bring light to God’s purpose in the imperfections of life. Read More

9 comments

  1. Oh Bree, I wish I could give you a big squeeze! Man, boys are messy sometimes, and heartbreak hurts like none other. Thank goodness for a Savior who never leaves or abandons us!
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  2. I’m listening to the lovely song as I reread your post. If that concept–I am not alone–were the only thing we could remember, it would nearly be enough.
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  3. What a beautiful piece of writing. I am sorry for how you are hurting but I can see that you are already noticing all the good around you, you are NOT alone!!
    Neive xo
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  4. Jennifer Rauscher

    What a terrific song and such encouragement! Through this trial Bree, you are NOT alone 🙂 God never leaves us!

  5. God is with you in even in your darkest hour. He was with me too through terrible trials and times. I am on the other side of those times and I can look back and see His mighty hand shielding me and protecting me. He is doing the same for you because you are not alone. Thanks for sharing you heart today.
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  6. Those feelings of being alone are ones I think we all have faced but how comforting when we remember the truth of God’s Word.
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  7. oh my goodness. i relate to this so much, my heart hurt and cried and smiled and all at once as i read this. <3

  8. This is so great! I know I let myself feel isolated and alone- in particular when I make a wrong choice or feel ashamed of something. I always do that! You’re right, though, we’re never alone. He never leaves us or forsakes us.

  9. You could definitely see your enthusiasm in the paintings you write. The world hopes for more passionate writers like you who are not afraid to say how they believe. At all times go after your heart.

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